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It's Not Easy Being Me
by: Lulu

I want to live,
I want to die,
I want to laugh,
But I only cry.
A thousand nights,
A thousand tears,
I wish it would stop,
It's gone on for years.
A thousand nights,
A thousand fears,
How long will it be
Before somebody hears?

I'm screaming for help,
I'm screaming for love,
For someone to cherish me
As they do a warm glove.
I cannot express the confusion I feel:
What will I eat for my next meal?

I wish this would stop,
This spinning inside,
I have nowhere to run
And nowhere to hide.
I can no longer bear this anguish and guilt,
Someone knock down this brick wall that I built.
The wall that defends me from inner pain,
Has at last I believe made me insane.

For I can't continue much longer like this:
Which meals to eat,
Which meals to miss.
I just want some love,
I just want a kiss.
For someone to tell me that things are O.K,
That I'll be free from this curse,
Eventually some day.

©2001 Lulu. Reprinted with Permission.

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