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If Only
by: Gem

If only I could dodge my fears
just go away and hide
to escape this fear thats haunting me
the fear I have inside

If only I could purify
wrong fragments in my being
I'd choose the bits that had to go
the new life's old unseeing

If only I could see myself
like others wish me to
but everytime I take a look
the wieght just battles through

If only I could find the end
to my life's long day
I'd never have the courage
to face it anyway

If only I could find a way
to talk it through from the heart
I know who I'd explain it to
but where on earth do I start

If only I could love myself
If only I could win
I know I'd go and live my life
If only I were thin

©2001 Gem. Reprinted with Permission.

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