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This is Goodbye

By: Nikki

To my Eating Disorder,

How do I say goodbye? And why am I so sad? Especially when I know first hand the damage that you, this relationship has done -- to me, my body, and my self-esteem. Why do I continue to chase you when I know full well that you want nothing but to hurt me. You are happy to see me on my knees, begging for help. You are strong when I am weak, and you have taken advantage of that. I can no longer perpetuate this insanity or play a part in continuing this unhealthy relationship.

You can no longer fill the emptiness, your presence makes the void inside me a black hole -- and my misery goes on and on, without end. You used me, I see that now. But I used you, too. I can no longer play this game, we will both lose. So, I say goodbye, goodbye forever. And if we should meet again in passing -- please don't acknowledge me, because I will not acknowledge you.

©2001 Nikki. Reprinted with Permission.

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