• To Let Go does not mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.

• To Let Go is not to cut myself off. It's the realization that I can't control another.

• To Let Go is not to enable. But to allow learning from natural consequences.

• To Let Go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

• To Let Go is not to try to change or blame another. It's to make the most of myself.

• To Let Go is not to care for, but to care about.

• To Let Go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

• To Let Go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

• To Let Go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.

• To Let Go is not to be protective. It's to permit another to face reality.

• To Let Go is not to deny, but to accept.

• To Let Go is not to nag, scold, or argue; but instead to search out my own shortcomings, and correct them.

• To Let Go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, and cherish myself in it.

• To Let Go is not to criticize and regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.

• To Let Go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

• To Let Go is to fear less, and Love more.

Take Care...
Lisa

January 26th, 1996

I spoke to Caron's sister and mother this week. They called me after waiting in a Canadian airport for hours, expecting Caron to climb off a plane from Los Angeles (the plane that they had bought her a ticket for). She never arrived.

Caron remains in Los Angeles, stubbornly refusing to return to Canada for medical and psychological care. I wish she had used the ticket home, I think she felt ready for a while, but in the end, gave in to her anorexic voice. That voice, I know, can be very loud.

Caron's arm and shoulder are doing better, her body trying to heal what it can, causing her less pain. But Caron is struggling. She has lost more friends (only in that they will not help her stay sick, they still love her without question) and is having a harder time taking care of herself more than ever.

I am still trying to help, in a different way than before (which was supporting Caron's illness accidentialy by making it easy for her to be comfortable as she was and therefore refuse help). I am currently attempting to get in touch with Peggy Claude Pierre of Montreaux Clinic fame, simply to see if she has any suggestions (because her clinic is voluntary and has a two year waiting list) or referrals to offer regarding Caron's situation. And I will never stop sending spiritual energies of health (praryer) Caron's way, along with all people suffering from eating disorders.